If I had decided not to leave my house today, it would have been a huge deal.
Today was the first day of Musical Theatre Camp 2006--my second year as assistant director of a camp with 20 kids ages 7-16. If I had decided to stay in bed today (which was tempting at 6am, let me tell you), I would have let Tricia down be not showing up and possibly ruined my friendship with her. I also would have missed out on a great group of kids--these kids learned the music and choreography to a song today in less than 3 hours! Amazing! Not to mention that the sitter would have expected us, and she would have been upset when we did not come. She loves being with Evie Catherine and so does her son, Nikki, so I think Nikki especially would have been upset if we did not come.
Otherwise, after the past two weeks, I need something to keep me occupied, and I think it would have been so lonely and sad to stay at home...especially since Cater went to his MawMaw's today for the week.
It has been a good day so far, so I am glad I decided to participate! :)
Monday, June 19, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
I wore a bikini today...
I wore a bikini to the pool today. I know it doesn't seem like that big a deal, but it was for me. The last time I wore a bikini was when I was 17 years old and had starved myself down to 118lbs. And I remember feeling so fat in that suit.
But yesterday I found a bikini at Target that I liked, and I bought it. After 30 years of feeling self-conscious about my body and feeling dowdy and conservative, I decided that I am sick of feeling like an old woman. I am 30 years old, 5'3", 139lbs with stretch marks and a pouchy belly, and I wore that bikini today and felt just fine. Even more than that, I felt great. Great because I did not feel fat; I did not feel self-conscious; I did not feel dowdy... Seems strange that after carrying and giving birth to two children, I feel better about myself than I ever have. I never thought I would ever feel this way, but I LOVE MY BODY, flaws and all!
And this turquoise bikini is just an outward sign of an inward transformation. I am finally figuring out who I am. I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I am finally confident. I am finally, finally happy with myself!
But yesterday I found a bikini at Target that I liked, and I bought it. After 30 years of feeling self-conscious about my body and feeling dowdy and conservative, I decided that I am sick of feeling like an old woman. I am 30 years old, 5'3", 139lbs with stretch marks and a pouchy belly, and I wore that bikini today and felt just fine. Even more than that, I felt great. Great because I did not feel fat; I did not feel self-conscious; I did not feel dowdy... Seems strange that after carrying and giving birth to two children, I feel better about myself than I ever have. I never thought I would ever feel this way, but I LOVE MY BODY, flaws and all!
And this turquoise bikini is just an outward sign of an inward transformation. I am finally figuring out who I am. I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I am finally confident. I am finally, finally happy with myself!
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